As I was typing the password to enter into my blog’s admin page (to write!), I wondered if the password would work. It’s been so long after-all. Wasn’t sure if it was the same or I’d changed it along the way.
The password remains the same. Only, I’ve been too stuck to open that page. Stuck in my mind? Stuck in my beliefs? Well, that remains a question for me to introspect.
For now, I’m dying to catch up with you all. To see how you’ve been. And, to let you know what I’ve been upto.
Well, for one, we moved houses – nearly seven months back. (And, that’s exactly how long I haven’t written here). So, not that I’m justifying, but a house move takes a big toll on my writing. And, art. And, craft. Oh well….! There I go again. But, hey, it does. Besides all the obvious tasks related to a house move (and the house hunt not to forget), there are new things that get my adrenalin flowing.
Like a blank canvas, a new house is so tantalizing – it’s exciting, nervous, challenging – all at the same time – to do up the space.
Yes, literally a blank canvas it was….
This house. For, before we moved, we’d sold off even the very basic furniture we had; parted with most of the crockery, furnishings, heaps and heaps of books. A house move itself is so tiring; I didn’t want to waste my time and energy over managing all that stuff that we can very well live without; all that possession that consumes my time, energy and attention away from my top priority – my children. Plus, my need to create time for my own creative satisfaction.
Over the years I’ve come to realize, all that we fret over – the clothes, the artefacts, the crockery, the curtains, the carpets and rugs – they only further us away from the selves that we want to be. For in the middle of acquiring and managing, there isn’t much time for self discovery, introspection, meditation, ‘doing nothing’, living in the moment, living mind-fully – things that take you closer to yourself. That doesn’t mean we shouldn’t enjoy the good stuff – wow, I know how much I love a good piece of handmade earthenware/ceramics! The problem, I think, arises when the ‘stuff’ scripts our life story and stress takes over….
Hence, the clean-up.
But well, in the next few months, we did buy some stuff – absolutely essential and simpler – easy to manage and simple in style – a style that reflects the people that we are at this stage in life – inside out.
The best part of this whole project was recycling and upcylcing a ton of things. And that includes converting bulky double beds into two single units; handpainting our own beds, art tables, chairs; upcycling age-old sarees into curtains. And, this reuse, recycle, refurbish, repair project is still on. Repurposing headboards into wall shelves – they’ve turned out gorgeous. So, lots of pics to share with you all. But, I need to download the pics and that may take another couple of days. So, in the meantime, I couldn’t wait to share this rambling from my heart.
There’s an old mirror that needs rehash.
There are cardboard boxes that I can convert into pieces of art.
There are old pots and pans that can be my canvases for zentangle art or something else.
There’re family photos that are being beckoned by those bare white walls.
But, more than anything else, I’ve got to start new seeds in my garden. (okay, I have those seeds sprouting already by the time I got around to publishing this post!) The rains aren’t far off and I need my saplings to be fairly sturdy just in time to be able to withstand the ferocious Goan monsoons.
In my next post, I’ll share my kitchen garden with you. I’ve harvested much and some are withering away in the current scorching conditions. A lot to share nevertheless.
Whoa…it feels good, to be writing again, to have those words tucked away in my chest tumbling out making amusing and weird sounds. Those stuck-up words had become an ache in my heart, a noise in my head.
More than anything else, I’m grateful to you, dear friends/readers, for being around here even though I haven’t written and connected with you all for months now. Thank you from my heart for reading this article. Please come by and say hello, share what you’ve been upto, what’s new and meaningful and fun (or not so fun) in your life right now. Hugs and blessings….